Lately, I haven’t been feeling quite like myself. I’m not sure whether it’s come across on the blog or not, but I just don’t feel like the Gabriela I usually am.

Since graduating from college last month, I’ve become acutely aware of the fact that I have no idea what I’ll be doing a year from now. Nada. Obviously I’m hoping I’ll have a job, but since I’m not entirely sure exactly which field I want to work in, or which part of the country I want to live in, it’s tough for me to envision it. I’ve looked up my “dream” companies and they all seem so far away: Texas, California, Washington, Florida. In a way, that’s kind of cool- I can go somewhere far and start all over again, explore a place I never thought I’d end up in- but it’s also really, really scary. I’d absolutely take the leap if I was offered something, but it’s hard to wrap my head around the idea that I might one day live a plane ride away from everything I know.

During this six-week interim between college and culinary school, I’ve been living at my parents’ house, just because I feel like it might be the last time I ever get to do so. (Oh, and I spend way less money in PA!) It’s nice to be home with Maggie, my parents and my high school friends, but I don’t have much to do, and as they say,”an idle mind is the devil’s playground.” Being bored leads to me over thinking things and getting emotional over stupid stuff, hence the reason I am writing this post. I’m getting anxious because I feel like there’s nothing I can pre-emptively do; while in a few months I’ll be doing the job search thing while balancing culinary school, blogging and having a life, right now it’s still to early to get a jump start on any of that. The type-A planner in me is freaking out.

Anyway, I know that many recent grad go through the exact same stuff, and part of the reason I feel so alone with everything is because I finished early, so most of my friends are still gearing up for their senior year. In any case, I’m still happy with my decision to graduate this year, and hey- maybe I’ll be full of sage advice for them by next spring. I hope.

I realize that I’m being a major drama queen, but just writing everything out has made me feel infinitely better. My life isn’t thrilling or even interesting right now, but I need to remember that it’s still life and I need to make the most of the situation I’m given every day. Uncertainty is a sucky emotion, but in the scheme of things I’m very lucky if that’s my biggest problem. Thanks for sticking around through this debbie downer period :)

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Anyway, enough emo talk. Where’s breakfast?
With all of that whining on my mind, do you really think I was creative enough to come up with something new and different? (Or even take a photo of it. Recycled pic alert!)
Protein cereal: Kashi GoLean, chocolate SunWarrior, TJ’s almond butter, bloobs and almond milk.
Hoping a good workout helps jump-start this day. Happy Friday!
If you had to move somewhere far away, where would you choose? I told my dad I can only do warmer climates. I cannot survive somewhere colder than the Northeast!!